,,I Hate Seeing U Happy..

..SelFiSh!! that's ME... Im REally Jealous At You Coz Ur Now Moving On... And UnfoRtuNately U Left ME HAnGinG.. Why It's So HarD to Forget Someone Like U?? EverytiMe Im Alone Or AccIdeNtallY I HeaRd THE SongS That Once We Played My Heart Beats Faster And Faster Until It Crashes Me.. and Notices The TEars Coming Out In My Eyes..SCarS Of The Heart ARe WrItIngs Of PAiN FroM Our Mistakes So That We May Have A HisTory To Look Back UPon As To Not Repeat The Past..."LoVe Is CoMpLicAted Just When I ThInk Im Over The PerSon I Love And Hear His Name And The MemOries Of Him Fill My Head And I BeGin To Love Him"... U Know What??? eVerytiMe Im With Him Ur THe One Im LonGing For.. Am I FaKinG MySelf?? He AlWays finds Me SmIlIng Or LaUghing But When He Sees Me Lonely Or Out Of Myself He Asked Me WhAt's Wrong?? I Look At His Eyes And Said... "NothIng" And Smile With Him .. He Really Hated Me When I Said NoThIng At All But ReallY Knows, Im Hurt InSide...There Are Couple Of Times He Asked Me "Yan Why Are U BeiNg Like That?? Ur ToTally Numb!! MayBe UR ScarEd AlReady Of TrUstIng SomeOne With All YOur Heart And Now Ur ActInG Like U Don't Care AnyMore...It Seems That U Never ExIsted Here.. "Yan when Ur always Like That Im The One WhO Hurt So Much Coz I ReallY Love U... What Was My Reaction??? NoThIng.. Really Nothing.. No emOtIons... I Just Played With My FiNgers Thats All... I KNow I ShOuLd Not Let MyselF HuRt Him Coz He Never Did SometHing WroNg In ME... I Try To BreaKup With Him But Im ScarEd Coz When I Try, I RemeBered What Was He Said That " He ReallY Don't Know What Will HappEn To Him If Im Gone" I Know He is ReallY sErIous When He Said It.. Coz Scientifically Speaking, I Tested And PrOVen It AlReady... I ReallY Know Him siNce 4 MoNths Had Past.. I KNow What Was TrYing To CroSs In His Mind Or What Was He Feels... Maybe He's Right Im Numb.. BeCause Of My Past...But SomehOw I AppReCiaTe Every Little Or Big ThIng He Do TryIng To Forget AbOut My Bitter Past WhOm I CoNsidered As BlacK ShEep In My LiFE But Still Never Loses HOpe That SoMeday We Will BE GooD FrIends.. Yeah Just "GooD FrIEnds" I Loved Him But Our Time HAd ToTally Bounded,,Time Can Tell.. OnLy A MeMories EXisTed In Our PresenT Life Now... I Have SomeOne New AlReady A SomeOne WhO Really Loves Me..And That Someone Who's AImIng That SoMeDay He Will WiNs My Heart.. He's Not Good As Him Or GooDLookIng As Him But This Someone Has a LOyaL Heart That Will Misses Me Everyday..